And Since Then…

It has been over a month, hasn’t it! Where on earth do I begin? The couple who came to replace Old Head Teacher and her husband put in their two-months’ quitting notice a week after training (in April). That’s one third of the staff that’s changing again, making the third two-teacher change in five months. Needless to say, people have been stressed out at the school.

I am slowly starting to feel a little more confident about my teaching and consciously trying to improve certain deficiencies every week, even as I feel like there is less and less free planning time, and I feel good about the improvements (regardless of the occasional apprehension). As time goes on I feel more comfortable as a part of the school and that makes me happy as well. The substitute for one of the teachers that are jumping ship (boss’ old friend) arrived in town earlier this week and she seems really sweet and warm and not anti-social, which is a huge improvement.

Predecessor-Teacher will be coming back as well!! To substitute, for a month or so. We are all extremely excited!! We feel really bad for her, having to come back and help out when she’s a newlywed, but we’re selfishly looking forward to it (mwuhahahahaha…)

My apartment is slowly starting to feel like my home. I don’t spend nearly as much time as I ought to on it, or any of the other things I could be doing outside of sleeping and cooking, but recently I’ve been making a bit more of an effort. And yes, I am aware that I have lost command of the English language. Please shoot me.

Our boss hired a Japanese teacher for us and we have lessons before our shift every Wednesday afternoon. It is the most amazing perk EVER (at least to me). I look forward to the lesson all week, and after it’s over, I want to do my homework or read more stuff instead of planning lessons and teaching! I love it so much. My teacher is so cool, too.
She’s Japanese, has lived in the United States, Poland, and get this–Bangalore!! She lived in my city!! She even named one of her children Satya. And she rescued a little kitten in a parking lot. I like her.

I may have been just fine with the written portion of the Driver’s License test, but I’ve failed the road test twice so far. I have to go again on Wednesday (thus foregoing my cherished lesson)–I really hope I pass this time. It is really not convenient for my boss to drive me to Toyota and back every damn Friday!

As for my state of being, I am a little frazzled at times, but doing well on the whole. I am busy but happy. A few weeks of utter dissatisfaction with myself and my inability to strike a balance in my life (I had the work and the socializing, but nothing independent–wasn’t doing any of my things) have led me to slowly try and make a little bit happen each day. It’s not much at all, and in the larger scheme of things it may be just as if I were still doing nothing, but just that daily effort makes me feel much better. My tendency to put a lot into human relationships can make me neglect my own self-development and awareness–and I was beginning to feel very clearly that I was no longer a person. So, whatever little things I can do to feel human every day, I try to do. And so, I am happier. Despite the gray rain and the oppressive heat, resulting in hideous appearance…

Updates on what I’ve actually done in the past few months will come eventually…sorry…

~ by samhitha on June 22, 2007.