Two-Month Review
As I talk to one of my best friends who is currently traveling through Tibet, the vapidness of my own life once again hits me straight in the face. While it may be true that I came here to be selfish for a year in the first place, I did at least intend to develop other habits and skills in that empty time/space. Things have been so busy lately and I have been so tired and unable to tightly manage my time that I have not been pursuing nearly as many of my interests as I would like to. I barely manage to clean my apartment every week and remember to take out the trash. And so, I feel like I let go of the few things about me that weren’t shameful, for no good reason at all. This overall inability to balance my own life and activities is a serious obstacle in terms of self-worth, and thus in healthy relations with others. My awareness of the problem, at least, is keeping me somewhat sane mentally and therefore kind of semi-balanced emotionally. But that can’t last forever. If I stay mired in this for too long it’ll start to alter my perception and I’ll lose the chance to pull myself out. I’m scared.
samhitha. i think we are bound by symmetry + separated by a mere sliver of sea… i’m also tied by a system of mundance chores inhibting the pursuit of…Happiness (?)
it is no coincidence that minds wired to create, fixate were confined to a little place called The School of Architecture.